after the fall...

I love these days of Fall
A contrite Sun ebbs, lets a gentle breeze play 
Languid evenings reminders of my graces and debts
As the wheels roll, kaleidoscopes of life's sketches whir by...

oct 26th 2015

endless march

i saw my grieving friend today
lost her grown son decades too soon
i hugged her tight for loss and love
she hesitated, "i'm ok" as she gently shook

i couldn't bring bumbling words to account
for this wretched reversal of a universe so cruel
she said she's back at work and shrugged,
"they ask why, but what else can i do...?"

she talked of his wife and her loss
generously giving her grief more sway
saying she lost her best friend, her love
how will she carry on, resume from there?

indifferent grief sat among us as we talked
how can we raise them, lose them, yet live on?
what is the nature of hope in such darkness?
"he said goodbye..." she smiled wide, "i love you mom"

and life moves right on without another thought
while it does us in, shattering all we sought
wide open wounds bleed and there is no pause
life's unabated drumbeat, "march on, march on!"

says she's wading through family pictures, old slides
ever practical readying for ceremonies and guests
then she saw my clouded face and gave me a smile
"i did lose his future, but i still have his past!"

-reena

for my dear, brave friend...
oct 10th 2015

i'm not here

sometimes it's just so long
before i catch my breath
and half this life is gone
exhausted, washed away

so who was it that said
i could have ruled this place
promises i made unwitting
signatures that make me pay

now you come asking for more
i don't know that i can undo
those vows i can still remember
and even promises to you

meanwhile i dream of losing
myself in new lands
where they believe the tales i bring
and no one knows my name

perhaps this vanity will die with me
perhaps it will set me free
but before that endless eternity
there's a different path i seek...


--reena
oct 7, 2015
..dream on...