Noisy

Chaos and clamor
Sounds of happy times
Nowhere else I'd be

find it here

The chaos and clamor of this life
Are sounds and madness of happy times
Where pandemonium reigns is where I live
And nowhere else I'd rather be

Lines I examine on my face
deep and true they run
so much laughter so much time
Yet I feel I've barely begun

One by one the days rush by
I grasp and often forget to breathe
And when I see the signs of years
The fear of death yet I won't yield

I wouldn't change a thing,
not a lucky day goes by
When I don't count such blessings
These sights, your smile

So don't come here to tell me
What lies ahead at twilight
Tales and scare stories won't
Dull this abundant heart's light


---
reena
2/17/17

Confide

Words run on wild inside my head

Bursting to confide, thoughts, demands of you

So much to tell you of what you must know

But I seem to lose my will to say

You ask your question you shake your head

Perhaps we are tired of trying so hard

I fight so much I want to lay and rest

I let you walk on, something holds me back

I know if I speak I risk so much
I know I can't keep this all inside
So while I keep these ropes bound so
Sometimes the lava must escape

I don't ask for you to understand
How could you, I didn't let it on
I don't know how I can let this be
Perhaps someday I'll have the chance to tell


---------
reena
1/11/17

Chasm

Aggrieved you stand in your hollow shock

And ask of me why I went that wicked way

You cry this is betrayal’s final straw

How could I have sold you to this piper of hate?

You demand of me so many things

Elevation to better bargains surely?

Accuse me of not knowing better

Never once asking what my tradeoffs may be

Your rarefied logic, your easy answers

Talk of gains, opportunities I haven't had
Blithely loud in loaded language of justice

But absent at my people's pillage n' death

Somewhere in the future beyond hubris & hype

Silence your echo chambers that mock my type

And come see me, acknowledge that I do exist

When your gaseous claims of horror vaporize

And then we can talk and perhaps you will listen

When I tell you why I reclaimed my seat

To make you consider my life’s travails

This wasn’t about you, is that so hard to believe?

_____________________________________________

Reena 

11/13/16

Speaking for those that are being belittled and accused unfairly of all sorts of things at DT"s unexpected victory...

I almost named this poem "Self Absorption, Donald Trump and other horrors..."

deep

long are my losses
and so many departures
broken notions of debts
unpaid or never taken

burdens you brought and
left at my door
i took them in and carried
what was not mine to bear

yet you seemed to lose
the words you owed to me
even if actions never acted
i could dream for a while

the years just flew
became mere vapors to hold
where i should have left a wall
i now find the deepest voids

so i'll walk along
try not to look over anymore
for i have been loved so long
even the deepest ones will fill

-------
reena
september 27 2016

Tide

tide

look for your chance

don't say no when she knocks

happiness comes a few times

to our door and holds out her hand

if the voices hold you back

they speak for themselves, for others, for those who crush in the name of peace

never you, never one who stands and says "i matter"

never a dignity you seek, never that which will have us blossom

so turn a deaf ear, grab her hand, walk away

for this life has no grace, no love, no joy

you've done what you could

walk away now and grab that happiness

it's yours, rightfully yours and only yours

but you'll have to stand up, take it, be seen with it

no shame in that except for the voices

shut them out and step out into the sunlight...

--

Reena Kapoor

June 30th 2011

Wrote this for a friend who deserves better -- and simply needs to give herself permission for it...

winds

People move on, 

Idle curiosities die

Words wash away, 

Promises vaporize to fly

Truths hold their breath, 

as trusts come up blank

I let it all dissolve to dust

Just the times must've changed 

--Reena

Sept 2016