deep

long are my losses
and so many departures
broken notions of debts
unpaid or never taken

burdens you brought and
left at my door
i took them in and carried
what was not mine to bear

yet you seemed to lose
the words you owed to me
even if actions never acted
i could dream for a while

the years just flew
became mere vapors to hold
where i should have left a wall
i now find the deepest voids

so i'll walk along
try not to look over anymore
for i have been loved so long
even the deepest ones will fill

-------
reena
september 27 2016

Tide

tide

look for your chance

don't say no when she knocks

happiness comes a few times

to our door and holds out her hand

if the voices hold you back

they speak for themselves, for others, for those who crush in the name of peace

never you, never one who stands and says "i matter"

never a dignity you seek, never that which will have us blossom

so turn a deaf ear, grab her hand, walk away

for this life has no grace, no love, no joy

you've done what you could

walk away now and grab that happiness

it's yours, rightfully yours and only yours

but you'll have to stand up, take it, be seen with it

no shame in that except for the voices

shut them out and step out into the sunlight...

--

Reena Kapoor

June 30th 2011

Wrote this for a friend who deserves better -- and simply needs to give herself permission for it...

winds

People move on, 

Idle curiosities die

Words wash away, 

Promises vaporize to fly

Truths hold their breath, 

as trusts come up blank

I let it all dissolve to dust

Just the times must've changed 

--Reena

Sept 2016